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Psalm 139:14 (NIV) speaks directly to my heart, reminding me of an invaluable truth: “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” For the better part of my 46 years, I’ve grappled with accepting my physical flaws and imperfections.

There have been moments when I felt insecure, scrutinizing every inch of my body. I’ve fixated on my height, the roundness of my face, the size of my belly, the flabbiness of my arms, and the abundance of freckles on my skin. The list could go on endlessly.

I’ve embarked on countless yo-yo diets, wistfully eyeing delicious donuts while munching on carrots and celery. I’ve experimented with an array of skincare and makeup regimens, attempting to camouflage and conceal my perceived flaws. I’ve hidden behind layers of fabric, seeking solace in disguises.

But life had other plans. Crohn’s disease stormed into my life with relentless force, causing me to shed 50 pounds within a mere few months. I resembled a fragile skeleton, ravaged by the effects of the illness.

After I had life saving surgery and worked my way back to health, my body changed again. Now, though, I have a different perspective- I’m grateful for the amazing thing my body can do.

True beauty transcends physical appearance. Psalm 139:14 assures me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made by the Creator Himself. My body, flawed and fragile as it may be, is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit.

Today, I choose to embrace my journey with self-compassion and acceptance. I celebrate the strength within me that goes beyond the external. I am a beautiful creation, deserving of love and respect, despite the physical challenges I face.